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厨二病とメンヘラは大人になれば治ると思ってた!

2011.08~2012.04 覚えたての英語を使いたくなる厨二メンヘラすぎてニヤニヤが止まらない。

2011年8月25日 ·

Should I just earn money??

Should I find what I want to do or be even if I lose my living??

I have to decide something but I don't have to decide everything.

How will my decision affect to my future??

Stop thinking, or I'd just waste my time.

 

 

2011年9月4日 ·

Everybody thinks about just themselves.

Shouldn't think about what people are thinking about.

They will tell you before you think about it if they want you to know.

Shouldn't trust in people.

Just make sure my living, money. That's all.

 

 

2011年9月22日 ·

If I expect more, I will explode.

 

 

2011年10月20日 ·

I can't do many things at the same time even if everyone can do that. And of course it's better if I can do everything at the same time. Should I try to be the same as everyone?

Or can I take my way? I always consider when I wanna focus on doing something..

 

 

2011年11月17日 ·

I don't know where I should go and what I should do.

I will complain wherever I go and whatever I do.

Even though I know complaining is the biggest my bad point, I can't correct it immidiately.

mmmmmmmmm.....

 

2012年3月11日 ·

I saw the news about the earthquake of Japan in Romania.

I have met a lot of people who don't know the word "the earthquake".

I know people who lost their family on 9.11.

I saw big slums "Favela" in Brazil.

I don't know how many children have died in Africa today.

I don't know what is the truth of the nuclear power plants and radiation in Japan.

I don't know the reason why the hostess of my guesthouse is crying downstairs now.

I don't know what is happening in the world now.

What I do now is appreciate the daily round of life.

What I should do is never stop trying.

What I must do is not talk the talk but walk the walk (and go on a diet).

Wish happiness for everyone.

 

2012年4月13日 ·

After i went back to Japan, i feel pressure even if I'm in my house. When i woke up late because of jet lag, dad said to me "you shouldn't say that because people who have a permanent job don't say that".

I actually found what i want to do but my friend said it's difficult to do by myself and it needs people, a lot of money, and technique.

I'll be alone and have no money but i don't care.

I live for my self satisfaction.

Bye everything, everyone.